4 months

My sweet little boo.

You are 4 months old today. It feels like I have lived a thousand lifetimes.  Aching to see and hold and feel you just one more time. Wishing I could see your beautiful eyes light up, and hear you make precious little noises.

It is my job to share the story of your brief little life for the rest of mine. I will do that with every breath I ever take.  My heart skips every other beat, as I am filled with the pain of not having you in my arms.

I celebrate you today my love.  Your sweet friends Adam and Becca brought me Rice Krispy Treats on Mother's Day... what a way to celebrate me, with one of your favorite foods. I wasn't able to eat them on Sunday because I was too wrecked with sadness, but I ate two today... one for each of us, and I thought of you with every bite. They don't taste as good as when I ate them with you.  I remember those nights that I would put a few marshmallows in a bowl with butter and microwave it, and then add a pour of Rice Krispies and mix it all up and eat it. You made me! A simple thing, but one of the thousands that will make me think of you forever and ever.

I love you.